So this might be my last post on Still Life with Grad Student. Not because I haven’t posted in a year. Just because it’s no longer accurate.
I passed my thesis defense. So I’m no longer a grad student, aight?
I almost can’t believe I’m finally done. Like, I’m a free person again! I can read books for leisure! I can play video games! I can watch Netflix! I can bake an entire cake and eat it! I can overthrow the government of a small town! I’m freeeeeee!
And you might think, hey, a master’s degree, that’s not bad. Not me. All I could think of on the way out was my mediocre performance and the fact that I just don’t understand questions when they come to me in the form of human speech. So I was on the train, tying my gloves in knots and reliving every awkward pause, every not-quite-detailed answer, and every time I just didn’t understand what you want from me, phrase your questions better, damn you! If you want to know what anxiety and depression look like when they’re together, this is it.
On the bright side, in the near future I might earn some money, which means I can finally get out and get some decent therapy again.
But first… money. And because it’s impossible to get a job with my skills and I don’t feel like moving halfway across Europe, I made the decision some months ago that I’m going to become self-employed. Why not? Not like I like routine and a fixed income, I mean, psshhh, who does? That’s so boring! Why not have to market yourself to strangers! That sounds like a plan!
So for the past four months I’ve taken training and classes and I’m pretty much well-prepared to start out in January. Maybe I’ll rename this blog. Still Life with Freelancer, or something. Because boiiiiii, do I have things to complain about.